They say the only thing permanent in life is change. I for
one have always hated change, the comfort of the moment has always left me
content. I have never felt the need for something new. Recently however, I felt
that more than ever, change is necessary. Always being the one who hates
confrontation and giving in reaches its saturation point. Although, I will not
go into bitch-mode, I will learn to stand up for myself , stop making
so many excuses for other people and not be afraid to put myself first.
I have always thought that putting myself first, would make me
selfish, but that beats being push over and pushed into some else’s shadow. All
of you out there please, please Shine
Bright like Rihanna’s song Diamonds. And it always helps to know who your
friends are and who are the ones sucking out all your pretty diamondness.
Your life tends to get comfortable, but change can sneak up on you and take you to places you never thought possible. And being alone with yourself, can teach you things no one else can. If your are still the person, who can’t be the bitch then you don’t have to. It would be wonderful to live life on repeat, where we live in a simpler time, the hardest things now seem like nothing. But that’s how life is, it throws at you only what you can handle at the time. And all we have to do, is not give up, it’s a very wise thing, a very wise friend told me recently. We are way too young to give up but I know of a lot of people who have. I can’t help but feel sorry for them, because even if I tried to help them I wouldn’t know where to begin.
That’s the thing about change, if we look at it straight in the face and take it on, we will overcome it, get comfortable with it, and then life will do something else to kick you in the face. Point is don’t get depressed, everyone is dealing with the same things. Either on a higher or lower scale than you are. You are not the only one, life is being extra special to. If you are like me, its true everyone else has it harder and they are more screwed up than you are, its just the way it is. Ever felt that you are playing psych major to many. You are, its because you are agreeable, nice and can play referee. Play the role don’t get sucked into the black hole, be who are just don’t lose yourself in the bargain.
